~Lonely?.....~

Dunno why...but this past few days have been kinda lonely.the feeling comes and goes though.never really permanent.but i guess for now,just kinda feel left out in my own home here.thank god i have my own room so that i don't have to be bothered with certain things.but i guess it's because of that that i feel left out....left alone....sigh....i just wanna go home to kl.missing my own friends,my family.no one ignores me there.everyone wants to hangout with me :( feeling so homesick now!!!

MAMA!!!come now please!!! i so need you right now :(

Arrgghh!!!just feeling freaking bored now.wish to just disappear.don't wanna be here anymore.just wanna leave dublin.....leave and never come back.but then again,i have a feeling that i might come back.hmm....i wonder....

Weird ain't it?to think that at this age,you wouldn't be so bothered about the things that ain't important to you.about things that are so petty that it shouldn't effect you daily life.ugh!!i hate this feeling.depressed,upset,bored.....this is so down right depressing.oh well...what can i do then?the feeling will pass,like all the other times i've felt this way.

Bank holiday weekend

3 days to go till a weekend in Paris...sigh...really can't wait.just me and my dahling...a romantic weekend in paris.but it ain't completely romantic though....still in the fasting month therefore no eating while sightseeing.but in a way,it's good coz it saves money :) oh well...shall wait and see what happens till then

Backstreet's Back.....ALRITE!!!!!!

WOOHOO!!!!! totally satisfied with the concert i went to yesterday.i know most of you might think that i'm too old to go for a BSB concert.....but i don't give a shit.I LOVE THEM!!!!apart from loving my boyfriend....i luuuurveeeeeeee Brian Littrell so the very much,ever since they came to KL in 1996.at 1st it was Nick...but then i realised he ain't that great.so over acting and his voice ain't that nice either.

I didn't know what to expect actually.they've been gone for nearly 5 years and appearing now with their new album (which i haven't bought yet...hehe).i honestly didn't know if BSB were big in ireland or not coz the concert tickets were selling kinda slow.but it seems to have sold out in the last 3weeks.and the hall was actually full.

The opening act was by Jesse McCarthy....he looked so adorable and he is truly very talented.half an hour after his perfomance,we had to wait for another half an hour for the staff to clear the stage for the boys to perform next.the crowd cheered and did a mexican wave for quite a few times.it was cool.sara and me bought the standing tickets.although it was tiring but it was still worth it....comparing to Britney,BSB was TOTALLY better.like...duh!! obviously,right.they definately sang live on top of that.i even almost lost my voice coz i couldn't stop singing along with them and jumping up & down....sigh....wish i could see them again soon.

But the only thing different bout them i think is that they were quite mellow in their performance.not in a bad way.i mean,compared to their previous concerts which was full of effects and bright lights and costumes,this was actually....how do i say this?hmm...i dunno.but it was a great comeback from them.with the fire works and all...totally cool.....

After 10 years waiting for the opportunity to go to their concert and i FINALLY made it!
LONG LIVE BSB!!!! loving you guys forever and ever till the end of time.they're like the best boyband in the world and nobody can top that!and that's a FACT people.

A full 2 hour concert and it was raining heavily by the time the concert was over.we were all soaking wet but we didn't care.at least i didn't.i got to see my boys.my all time fav boys.

BACKSTREET'S BACK......ALRIGHT!!!

JuSt BoReD

Hmm...what to write about today?dunno really.just felt like typing but have no clue of what to express.i'm just soooo bored.

I bought a cd yesterday.the OC Mix vol.2...haha...felt kinda stupid for actually buying it.but then again,like i said,i was bored.and also coz it was one of those cd's that was on offer.wanted to buy Kelly Clarkson's new cd but it was too expensive so i decided to buy the OC instead.i tried to listen to it on Intan's laptop last nite but dunno why it couldn't be heard.i then brought it to work today and it turned out fine.almost returned it back to HMV but decided to keep it.the songs were ok i guess.not too hard on the ears.

I was talking to my mom today when i got back from work.really miss hearing her voice....though i just talking to her in the morning before i left for work.heh....oh well...mommy's girl then eh?so she told me that after i called earlier on,she got a phone call on the mobile from a recruitment agency asking me to come for an interview.that was my 3rd phone call for an interview this month...not including the e-mail which is a total of 4 then.though 2 of them is only from a recruitment agency,at least i have an interview to go to rather than none at all right?very excited bout that.

I'm also excited that my cousin said that she'll help me out in working as an intern in her company in singapore.i really hope i'll get to work there.at least i can earn double than if i work in kl right?oh well....we'll wait and see how things goes for me when i get back.

~EvEr WoNdEr?~

~ever wonder what it feels to be alone in a place far from home?
ever wonder what it's like to be around people you hate and far from the ones you love?
it ain't so easy.....or could it just be me?missing everyone i love back home.wish i didn't have to feel so alone.
but i am not alone.i was never alone.why am i feeling this way?is it just one of those days where you just feel like you want to disappear from the world and into a different reality....or maybe a fantasy.a place where everything is all sweet and nice with sugar and spice.a place where we will only live in our dreams or maybe once upon a time ago....when we were so much younger without a care in the world.~

these were just my thoughts a few months ago.when i thought that i won't be goin home anytime soon.when i thought i was stuck here for another year or so.i'm so glad it's almost over.almost time for me to leave.almost time for me to start my life back home.woohoo!!!!

to kill or not to kill

Why is it that some people just love to make you suffer or even make you cry?even worse...blames you for the things that was not even your fault in the 1st place and then suddenly comes back to say it's ok or everything's fine now....like as if nothing was wrong.such an ARSE i tell you.didn't even have any common courtesy to say sorry.and you know who this "fucking arse" is?(in an irish slang)....it's my freaking new manager.OH MY GAWD how i hate him.he seriously needs a total punch in the nose.even at least a slap at the face.sheesh.....i think i've complained bout this man more than once now.and i'm sure everyone hates hearing bout it by now.everyone even hates him at work.whenever we needed time off from our duties,we'll walk around bitching bout this guy.heh...that's life for us at work.

These kind of people, ie: my manager, are really testing your patience.the things they say or do.darn it.i just wanna go home.wanna curl in my big bed at home without a care in the world.sometimes i feel that life is just shitty....it sucks to the max that sometimes you feel like maybe killing youself.but then again....that's just too pathetic.

I miss goin to kickboxing classes.the best way to release all the stress in me.miss hitting all the punching bags or even the instructor who holds the bag for you while you "accidentally" punch or kick him instead.haha....what a great feeling :) one of the reasons why i can't wait to go home.

fasting month

It's already our 6th day of fasting and alhamdullilah....everything has been goin well...at least,that's what i try to think it has.

As usual,work sucks lately.really annoyed with my new boss.i think almost everyone at work is annoyed with him...hates him even.he's fine at times but will suddenly blame you for the smallest things.it's really frustrating nowadays,especially since it's fasting month.totally have to be patient and be cool so that i won't curse at him or talk bad bout him all the time.which sometimes i just can't help it ;p oh well.

Yesterday i cooked tandoori chicken, dhal curry and chapatti for break-fast.so glad the tandoori turned out well coz it was my 1st time making it.woohoo!!!but it was a total pressure in a way coz i had to cook for 6 ppl.it wouldn't be to bad if i had cooked it before.but in a way it was myself who wanted to cook tandoori for everyone.

Today intan made tom yam soup.totally yummy!!!now i REALLY can't wait to go home.it's just 2 months to go :)

is it October?

Gosh....it's already october.time really flies when u're so busy.where did it go?what has happen?felt like i didn't get to do much this year.but i think i have.hehe....

About 3 days to Ramadhan...so excited.then it's gonna be Raya time.it's gonna be my last Eid celebration in ol' dublin.sad and happy at the same time :) the following week after raya,mom will come with Jehan for a visit & for my convo.can't wait!!!

Two months to go till i go home.my HoMe SwEeT hOmE in K.L......but i don't think i can rest straight away.i'll leave dublin on friday afternoon and will reach KLIA the next day,saturday afternoon.on sunday i then have to go to Ipoh for Liz's wedding.i think i'm gonna miss her akad nikah :( but definately will be there for the bersanding.now i DEFINATELY can't wait for that.

so many things have been happening here lately.with all the new students just came from malaysia to our college.there were so many of them this year.their class is now 70% malaysians.more ppl means more probs.really???yes....really.the things that's been goin on here are too weird,stupid,childish,blah blah blah......it's even too retarded to repeat.oh well,i'm leaving soon anyway,so i guess i shouldn't be bothered.but for those who are goin thru this weirdness in dublin,i hope u guys will be patient & be strong to face each day.