~EnGaGeMeNt UpDaTeS~

Aaaaaahhhh......1 week to go till my engagement day. Well, actually...only 3days to go. Yikes!!! One step closer for him to be mine, and me to be his.

But I am sooooooooooo not ready. I mean, not that I'm not ready to be engaged. But not ready on the preparation! Sheesh....it's only a freaking engagement for pete's sake. Why does it all seem to much?

There seems to be more and more people who are invited to my engagement. The last few ones are not even approved by me! I don't even know them. They are not even related! Sigh...how overly excited my parents have become. Especially dad....he can't seem to stop inviting everyone he sees. Mom made a comment to him; “I think it's best you stay at home this next 2 weeks. Or else, you'll keep inviting people whom is not even important for this day.”

For me? Well, I'm just very tired at the moment. To keep up with work and also with the preparations. Not to mentioned reminding friends to come and making sure they are available on that day. For the moment, I know at least half of my own friends are coming for sure. But the usual busy bees are trying their best to attend. If they do, well...I'm very honoured for their efforts. For those who can't make it for personal reasons, can't blame them....I totally understand. There's always the wedding to attend next year.hehe.....

Things to do, things to do......SO MANY THINGS TO DO!!! hahahah......Can I cope?Can I handle it?Why can't Farid be back on this day?sigh.....I need his support right now. Support over the phone is not enough babes. I need physical and mental support here!

~LiViNg iN a TiMe BoMb?~

Mom made a funny yet so true comment the other day.

I called to update her on things that's been going on in my life (work and the engagement). I told her about Farid's plans to migrate to Australia in the next few years. It seems that job opportunities in Australia is better now. Mom seems happy with that bit of information. She said...”Well, anywhere is better than Singapore actually. You're like living in a time bomb there.”...tik tik tik....kabooom! hahahaha....

It's true though. Singapore environment is just too hectic and I don't know what the people here are chasing for? Just when you think you can stop and catch your breath, it seems that you have to run again. Even in a small company, it's obvious you're trying to out-do each other....and sometimes without even realising it.

I was in London a couple of years back, and I thought living in London would be hectic. But Singapore proved me wrong. Then again, I haven't been to Japan. It might be even worse there....haha...

Basically, mom advised that I should move away from Singapore for my next career in life. It's just not healthy for me to be in Singapore too long. I have family here, so I can come back anytime I want to visit them. Visiting is one thing. But to actually live here? I should REALLY think about it.

Opportunities are everywhere. It's just how YOU grab that opportunity and make full use of it.

~Something That Made My Day~

Yesterday, went to pick up my engagement outfit from the tailor in Arab Street. Originally, I had went on last Saturday. But somehow, the outfit didn't fit me right. The tailor was in shock and I was in a blur. The 1st thing that cross my mind was..”on no, not again”.

I had originally sent my engagement outfit to a tailor in Subang Jaya. Thought that since we've sent to her before, her sewing would be good...and at the same time cheap. But to my dismay, the outfit was...how can I put this...horrible? Well, not horrible...but basically it was not to my expectations at all! The design was all wrong and I really cried once I got home. I couldn't think straight, i didn't know what to do! To make a new outfits seems like it was too late at that point of time. Should I or shouldn't i?

Both mom and dad knew how sad I was. Even Farid suggested to make a new one since my outfit was not to my liking.

So as a conclulsion......I made a new outfit for my engagement. Even choose a different colour! From baby blue now a dirty pink. Am so happy with the new material. Really gorgeous. A bit more expensive too..but I like it so much. And the tailoring....oh gosh..the tailoring. Still can't believe how expensive it cost me. I mean, to compare to the one in KL, this tailor cost me a bomb!

For her to be able to complete my outfit in just 2 weeks is perfect! I felt so bad to rush her. And on top of that, it's my 1st time sending to this lady. So imagine my concern when I decided to use her services? So, like I mentioned before, when I went to pick up my outfit on Saturday, I was speechless when the outfit didn't fit me right. Seriously, I couldn't handle any more stress from just my outfit. The tailor was in shock as well. She couldn't believe it didn't fit. She kept saying this is the 1st time where a customer didn't fit the outfits that she made. Hmm....makes you wonder eih? Did I really lost more weight? Or she just took the wrong measurements? Well, she took my measurements again anyway.

So last night after work, I went to pick up my outfit. Was really nervous about it. When I got there, the 1st thing the lady said to me was.....”Shireen! I was right! You lost more weight since I saw you 2 weeks ago!” I couldn't stop laughing. I mean....seriously, I never expected to lose the weight let alone, the inches. But I was pleased with myself. All that hardwork of going to the gym, swimming, tennis and kickboxing really paid off.

Now, my engagement outfit fits almost perfectly. I didn't want to adjust it any smaller. Since my weight is like a yo-yo....I'd rather maintain the outfit as it is for now. It's still a bit loose in some areas, but I'm happy with it. So, regardless the pricey charge of the tailor, she's all worth it in the end.

For a bad day at work...my engagement outfit really made me happy by the end of the day.

~Felt So Unappreciated~

Well....it's Monday and my day started with the suckiest news ever. The usual....work related drama.

It all started last Friday morning. One of our biggest clients informed us that the original proposal we sent him was way off by 80%...not even specifying to us what was wrong with the proposal. So basically we had to scramble our way through with this last minute change. And to top it off, the proposal and costing needs to go out on a Monday morning....which is...today.

So on Friday, ¾ of the day has been wasted with brainstorming sessions for the revised proposal and by the time I had to do the costing, it was already 5:00PM! And my boss had to leave on time as he had plans with his family already. Being the good staff that I am, I stayed on to do my task without any complaints. I was actually happy to do it coz it has to do with numbers! But unfortunately, the task proved too much for me. It was already 01:00AM and I was still stuck in the office with the costing only half done. And even though my boss had checked it from home, I somehow knew that changes might need to be done.
In the end, I left the office at 02:00AM on a Saturday morning. Ugh!...can't believe I stayed in the office THAT long on a Friday night. How sad is that??? Got a good scolding from my boyfriend too...which makes it even more frustrating.

Since I haven't finished my work, I thought I'd do it at home the next day. I then realised I don't have the full information I needed for my costing. So to work I went..on a Sunday afternoon. Work??? On Sunday??? yes....I'm turning into a workaholic, which I try to avoid being. So my target to be in the office was only for about 3hours.....which in the end ended up being 7 hours. (Mind you, that I am not being paid overtime for this). It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have an appointment last night. Had to cancel dinner with an old friend.

Sooooo ANNOYING!!!! I was looking forward to my dinner/drinks with my friend. I haven't seen her in like.....8 years since high school. Sheesh....the things you do for work? Or at least not to be called a SLACKER. And you know...the best part of all this. It's the cherry on top of my bad week/weekend at work...after hours and days doing the costing and taking advise from my boss.....I came in today with the most disappointing feeling in my life! I saw emails after emails sent early in the morning today. It seems that my boss actually came back this morning to make the changes in my costing. I mean, it's fine and all. But the thing is, it's EVERYTHING that I've done! What the F**K!

"I am leaving office now. Too tired and can't think properly now and it will be inaccurate costing and rush job (which already is) from here even if I force myself to continue. I am still left with the following (which I am literally crying out loud for help now!) "

The above was what he said.

So tell me people...what's the point of me doing this and not a single thing is being used or even for my boss not to tell me what he's doing? Reading his emails totally gave me a heartache. Is he trying to say I have not even contributed to a single thing? Did I mess up the whole calculations? You know, this wouldn't have happen if the F**K-ing client didn't ask for a last minute change and wants it on a Monday!