~Life Goes On~

It's been exactly 3 weeks since granny passed away. The feeling is just not there anymore. Am feeling so sad and some what depressed being here too long. Need to go home. Need to be back in KL where I won't think too much.

Imagine, everyday after work, going back to an almost empty flat. Almost coz my aunt and cousin is still there. But the person whom I love is not around anymore, it's just too hard to handle. Not sure how long I can take it. Have been trying so hard to be strong, to let things go and also...for life to go on.



It's just not that easy. To open the door and not see her there, sleeping soundly...and to just wake up even when you tip-toed in the house, she managed to hear me coming in, late after work. To hug her tightly whenever I come home late, more of guilt coz I never get to spend as much time with her as I intended to. To bake loads of different things for her to have a taste and for her to know how good I've become. Even if she hasn't even heard of what I've cooked, she would still want to try it anyways.

I miss her so much. Although sometimes, most granny's would love to nag, I still miss her.

I want to go home, I need to go home...... ~Al-Fatihah~