~New Life, New Business~

It's my 2nd week now and alhamdulillah, business has been going really well. I'm not talking about my usual baking business. No....this is slightly different. Something that I thought I'd be doing later on in life after I've retired with 6 children...hahah...

As most of you may know, living in Dublin with the hubby has been great. However, me not working...may sometimes be such a bore....baking business has been such a slow process and it's really taking time for people to know about it. So friends of ours suggested that I start selling packed lunches. Yes people.....packed lunches (nasi bungkus la..). 1st week was a bit slow but gradually more people knew about it and liked what I've cooked.

I made sure that I've come up with different menu for my customers, ensuring that they don't get bored with what I've cooked...and also making sure they keep coming back for more :)


There would be some days where I'll cook something simple like Kampung Style Fried Rice with Fried Egg on the side. And some days, there'll be something special like Chicken Rice with that special sauce and Nasi Lemak (top 2 fav of my loyal customers). Maybe I'll add some photos in my next update.

~Anger?~

So it's true what they all say. As it gets nearer to your wedding day, the crankier you get and the worst, you pick fights with almost anyone over the slightest matter. Why is that? Is it due to all the stress around you? But why? You get stressed over work but you don't act like a total bitch to the people around you. You have problems at school, you don't snap at others for talking to you. Even during PMS, you don't bark at people as much...well, not me anyway.

I hate being in this situation. To make things worse, I've actually taken the new job offer here in KL. I didn't want to initially. But being forced by some people, I took the job in the end. A total bore this job is. It's not challenging at all, unfortunately. Or maybe it's too soon to say coz they haven't given me much responsibility? I dunno. I just don't like this...as in this person I've become. Overly cranky, I snap at my mom most of the time (I feel so bad, I hate myself!). I think I may have suppressed anger. To many things bottled up inside, worried I may blow up...the signs are there, I think. But where did all these feelings come from?

Gawd...I think the feelings came from everywhere. Can't mention everything here though. Some people whom I don't want to offend may read this and it might ruin the friendship. Or even, some secrets are better left as it is and things better left unsaid. Too many things to deal with right now. Others always tell me to relax, keep cool. Man, if only they know what's really going on in this head of mine. Everyone has their own problems, and I have mine. Some of them will share their problems with me, and vice verca. But not everything can be shared, right? Too private, too emotional, too personal. And they might not understand.

I just hope Farid understands me enough though. I worry he doesn't get me. But apparently he does. He's been really patient with this crazy me. Crazy cranky Shireen, who snaps/barks at people whenever they speak to her. I noticed that my sarcasm has increased too :( this is soooooooo not good. A little sarcasm is ok, but extreme ones? Gawd! I hope no one was offended. This is the worst phase in my life....EVER! And I hate it!

~Smoking Kills?~

Ok...It's not like I support people who smokes. Totally hope that they realize themselves and quit. I came across this quote in The Straits Times today and found it quite....interesting;

"Smoking kills you, but life kills you, and if you don't want to die, go into a freezer when you are born and nothing will happen to you."
~Graphic novelist Marjane Satrapi~

~ToTaL fRuStRaTiOn~

My blog has officially become the place where I let out my frustration. Every single day, without fail, there's always something that frustrates me. Like today for example, it started off good. Coz it's a Friday. My last Friday at the office. Yeay, right??? Not really.

Today, I have to provide my second update regarding some work. For this little project, I've asked for some assistance from our dear customer service staff. Since they're not too busy lately, I've asked for their help. Now, the task was given like a month ago, and was due last Friday. As suspected, non of them came back with any updates. And as predicted, I was asked for my latest update on what's going on from the Director.

So I sent out a gentle reminder email to the “assistants” requesting for them to provide the latest update by this Friday (today) regardless if the job was finished or not. Out of the 3 who is helping, only 1... I repeat, 1 person had finished the task. And the other 2? Guess what, they haven't even started on theirs, at all! How do I know this?

1^st, one girl had actually asked someone else on how to do the task given. Like hello! Am I not here for you to ask anything?

2^nd, the other girl was on such a long leave. So obviously nothing was done yet. It was from a medical leave, to annual leave and finally added on an emergency leave. Like....what the hell????

And today, the 1^st girl finally called me and asked a question. I went to her desk and saw her computer screen as she asked me the question. “If the club is in different cities but in the same state, do I need to highlight it too for you to check?” ... Huh? Did I not asked you to check on the website to make sure they are not the same clubs? And didn't I also mentioned that there may be clubs with the same name but in different cities or states???? Like....OMG!!! What the hell are you doing? Were you not listening to a single word I say? Do they not understand the words that are coming out of my mouth???

Man, I don't know how much longer I can take this. I know it's only 3 days to go till I leave. But must I still go through this? This is the most frustrating thing that's been going on this past 3 weeks.

I'm sure most of you are definitely clueless on what I'm babbling about. But I don't care. Just frustrated and annoyed. Sigh....kinda feel better now. Just needed to let it out.

~GoT tHe JoB!~

To think that once you're leaving the company, there's nothing much left to do. Unfortunately for me, that is not the case. There's this work which has been pending for ages and those who were suppose to assist me are freaking arses! Only 1 person who actually helped and the other 2?....sigh...The frustration is never ending. Gawd!!!

And on top of that, I still have not packed my things, clean up my drawers, clear my storage folder in this darn computer....and many many more!!! Can't believe that I stayed till 10.30pm last night to finish up the workload. Sheessh......

Got a call from mom today.....
Me: Hello?
Mom: You got the job!! haha....
Me: Huh?? I did??? hahaha.... (paused) But...do I have to?...haha
Mom: Well, up to you. But the pay is low though......

Damn company. How low could it be right? Yes people....very VERY low. But at least I'll get some allowance for my car petrol (reason being, I have to go out and meet people). Won't complain about that though. And the low pay? Well, won't complain either. At least, I have some kind of income while back home. Don't have to keep asking for money from dad. Unlike some lucky brat who doesn't want or doesn't need to work at this age. I mean, how can people just sit at home doing nothing, right? Do you not get bored? Day to day, waking up wondering what to do for the day, the week, the month, the year! Gawd! Hmm...maybe the brain is not needed much. Oh well....they seem happy with their “fulfilled” lives. Hah!