~Smoking Kills?~

Ok...It's not like I support people who smokes. Totally hope that they realize themselves and quit. I came across this quote in The Straits Times today and found it quite....interesting;

"Smoking kills you, but life kills you, and if you don't want to die, go into a freezer when you are born and nothing will happen to you."
~Graphic novelist Marjane Satrapi~

~ToTaL fRuStRaTiOn~

My blog has officially become the place where I let out my frustration. Every single day, without fail, there's always something that frustrates me. Like today for example, it started off good. Coz it's a Friday. My last Friday at the office. Yeay, right??? Not really.

Today, I have to provide my second update regarding some work. For this little project, I've asked for some assistance from our dear customer service staff. Since they're not too busy lately, I've asked for their help. Now, the task was given like a month ago, and was due last Friday. As suspected, non of them came back with any updates. And as predicted, I was asked for my latest update on what's going on from the Director.

So I sent out a gentle reminder email to the “assistants” requesting for them to provide the latest update by this Friday (today) regardless if the job was finished or not. Out of the 3 who is helping, only 1... I repeat, 1 person had finished the task. And the other 2? Guess what, they haven't even started on theirs, at all! How do I know this?

1^st, one girl had actually asked someone else on how to do the task given. Like hello! Am I not here for you to ask anything?

2^nd, the other girl was on such a long leave. So obviously nothing was done yet. It was from a medical leave, to annual leave and finally added on an emergency leave. Like....what the hell????

And today, the 1^st girl finally called me and asked a question. I went to her desk and saw her computer screen as she asked me the question. “If the club is in different cities but in the same state, do I need to highlight it too for you to check?” ... Huh? Did I not asked you to check on the website to make sure they are not the same clubs? And didn't I also mentioned that there may be clubs with the same name but in different cities or states???? Like....OMG!!! What the hell are you doing? Were you not listening to a single word I say? Do they not understand the words that are coming out of my mouth???

Man, I don't know how much longer I can take this. I know it's only 3 days to go till I leave. But must I still go through this? This is the most frustrating thing that's been going on this past 3 weeks.

I'm sure most of you are definitely clueless on what I'm babbling about. But I don't care. Just frustrated and annoyed. Sigh....kinda feel better now. Just needed to let it out.

~GoT tHe JoB!~

To think that once you're leaving the company, there's nothing much left to do. Unfortunately for me, that is not the case. There's this work which has been pending for ages and those who were suppose to assist me are freaking arses! Only 1 person who actually helped and the other 2?....sigh...The frustration is never ending. Gawd!!!

And on top of that, I still have not packed my things, clean up my drawers, clear my storage folder in this darn computer....and many many more!!! Can't believe that I stayed till 10.30pm last night to finish up the workload. Sheessh......

Got a call from mom today.....
Me: Hello?
Mom: You got the job!! haha....
Me: Huh?? I did??? hahaha.... (paused) But...do I have to?...haha
Mom: Well, up to you. But the pay is low though......

Damn company. How low could it be right? Yes people....very VERY low. But at least I'll get some allowance for my car petrol (reason being, I have to go out and meet people). Won't complain about that though. And the low pay? Well, won't complain either. At least, I have some kind of income while back home. Don't have to keep asking for money from dad. Unlike some lucky brat who doesn't want or doesn't need to work at this age. I mean, how can people just sit at home doing nothing, right? Do you not get bored? Day to day, waking up wondering what to do for the day, the week, the month, the year! Gawd! Hmm...maybe the brain is not needed much. Oh well....they seem happy with their “fulfilled” lives. Hah!

HaRi RaYa 2007

Well, raya is here already. Thank goodness things are not much of a difference.

Every year, the day before raya, my cousins and I would go to Gelang Serai in Singapore. It's more of a routine for us cousins to go there, late at night to either do out last minute shopping (coz most stuff would be “cheaper” on the last day), buy dendeng to munch on, and also just plain jalan-jalan.

This year, we really made an effort to go, since it's going to be my last raya here in Singapore. We went there at around midnight. After going around with nothing much in mind on what to buy, we finally went to the dendeng stall to get some of our favourite meat. Gawd...imagine the long queue we had to go through. We decided to go to another stall but to our dismay, the dendeng was already very limited. My cousin asked for 1kg of dendeng, and the guy got so shocked of the order. Since there was a long queue, my cousin agreed to only 300g of dendeng. My other cousin was surely not satisfied and decided to queue at the 1st stall that we went to. Surely enough, we managed to get another 700g. Sigh...the things we go through just for dendeng. Hahaha.....

We reached home at about 3am, but only managed to sleep at only 4.30am. Damn....I was sooooooo sleepy the next morning. Thank goodness there was nothing much to prepare that morning. Everything was done the night before.

Surprisingly, everyone came to the house that day. You'd think that once grandma is not around anymore, all the aunts, uncles and cousins wouldn't come over. Am so happy that they came. It was so cheerful that day. I hope it will continue to be that way.

~What About Now - by Daughtry~

Shadows feel an empty heart, as love is fading
All the things that we are, but are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars, and make it to the dawn

Change the colours of the sky and open up to
The ways you made me feel alive, the ways I loved you
For all the things that never died, to make it through the night.....Love will find you

Chorus:
What about now
What about today
What if you're making me, all that I was meant to be
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find
Baby, before its too late
What about now

The sun is breaking in your eyes, to start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace
Shadows fade into the light, I am by your side where love will find you

Chorus:
What about now
What about today
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be
What if our love never went away
What if it's lost behind words we could never find
Baby, before its too late
What about now

Now that we're here
Now that we've come this far, just hold on.
There is nothing to fear, for I am right beside you
For all my life, I am yours

Chorus:
What about now
What about today
What if ur making me more than I was meant to be
What if i love and never went away
What if its lost behind coz we could never find

What about now
What about today
What if ur making me more than I was meant to be
What if i love and never went away
What if its lost behind coz we could never find
Baby before its too late (3x)
What about now

~Counting the Days~

3 and a half weeks.....exactly 23 days to go......I'm just counting down the days till my last day here in this company. Cleaning up my space, clearing my storage folder in the computer, making sure not leaving any personal belongings or information for anyone to see.

What am I feeling? I dunno what to feel. Should I have any feelings whatsoever? Maybe.....a slight sadness, maybe a slight regret......GAWD!!! no more feelings bout anything man. Haha.....what's done is done. There's no turning back. No need to think bout anything now. Just need to look ahead and move on.

There's so many things going on right now. And I can't wait to start with what I have planned. Mom said, we'll be going to China in Nov. I hope the plan is all worked out, now that I'm going to be free.....hehe...need to get a camera. It's high time to buy a new camera. But am still clueless on which one to buy now. Casio? or Canon? or Casio? or Canon? Which is better? Canon obviously. But Casio is having a good promo and cheap too. Well, not so cheap, but definitely affordable. Sigh....dunno what to do. I have to wait for my cousin this weekend I guess.

Busy with all the baking for raya? Most definitely. Hope I can get everything done in time. So many orders yet it feels like so limited time. Things will be ok....insyaAllah.

My poor baby in Dublin. Raya will be so quite for him this year. Both his housemates went back to Malaysia this year for raya, and he's all alone in his apartment. I hope he won't be too lonely. Patience ya sayang.

Raya is for sure not going to be the same this year. With nenek not around anymore, the house will surely be quite. Not many ppl will come to the house to visit. But I hope to be able to visit some relatives this year. 2007 will be the mark of my last raya in Singapore. Yup, no more 1st day of raya in Singapore after this. I don't know how it's going to be next year. Not be able to celebrate raya with my parents on the 1st day too. The changes I'm going to go through, celebrating raya with Farid. Well, it's not like it's the 1st time I celebrated raya without my parents anyway. But it's a major diff as it's going to be my 1st raya as someone's wife (",) hehe...

Well, we will see how things go...and hope for the best. InsyaAllah.....